the dream disciples

Dear God, I’m trying to dream
but I’m going to Hell for my thoughts

grounded hopes I kill
sacrifice them off the ledge of my laptop

chanting, yes plenty
the dream disciples sing out in wet tongues

the roar of their licking fires
do not unnerve them

they believe in faith
I have no faith in believing

anything too hot
reduces me to confessional tears

so I continue slaying my desires
upon the concrete foundation of this place

where I’m conveniently
closer to Hell by thirteen carpeted steps

little diablo

little diablo

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29 thoughts on “the dream disciples

  1. Love your writing AnnMarie! That is an awesome drawing, I got great sleep AnnMarie the med increase worked and I felt more relaxed and got plenty of rest. AnnMarie=Number One! Woo hoo! My birthday is this month at the end of a month all I want for my birthday is a big woo hoo from AnnMarie!

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      • Yaay I knew AnnMarie would give me a woo hoo! I will keep up the good work. You will be proud of me I am working harder on my diabetes. I found a way to make exercise easy. I just walk in laps around two streets by my house that keeps my sugar great. I am going to write you a new story AnnMarie if I look at my watch it’s time for another AnnMarie story!

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      • you’re very sweet to write such lovely stories, but never feel you need to – what you do need to do is continue being creative and staying so very positive – for a young man you are light years beyond many of us old folk in intelligence and fortitude:) we could all take a lesson from your positive spirit, Dan
        WHA HAA we’ll save the woo hoos for your b’day;)

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      • I have a extreme compulsion to write stories for nice good women like you, Rita B, Paris and so on. The way I see it good women need to be shown appreciation. As long as I have AnnMarie as my friend I’ll be focused on the positives. I always work hard and keep on going through the good and bad times because I keep the people I love close to me. Thank you AnnMarie those are some very nice and kind words you offer about me. That means a lot but I’ll do continue to do what I am in this writing gig for to put smiles on a lot of girl’s faces young, old, middle aged.

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      • AnnMarie I finished your new story ‘AnnMarie is Pretty’ I like that title. It’s brief and a good story go read and enjoy it my beautiful youthful delicate artist friend!

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  2. Confucius say: Sometimes you have to descend to Hell in order to reach Heaven (or something like that, maybe I’ve got that wrong). Actually, I do think the creator has to dip her toes into the hot, hellish waters before she can rise to the cool, heavenly vapors attained by the lot of artists, writers and other creatives. Up in that stratus you’ll find the Hemingways and Dickinsons and Matisses and Bonheurs, et al. You must continue slaying your desires upon the concrete, yes, but in time faith will come to you like a monarch butterfly rising on the soft delicate summer winds … Sorry, I’ve been drinking too much red wine tonight as I write these enduring words, but do have faith in them — there is some sense, some advice, somewhere between the white spaces. Lovely verse, AM. Lovely Diablo.

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    • lol I like your inspired red wine words here, ds
      you know I think I fell in love with e.e. cummings last night
      now I must purchase his anthology
      wow – wouldn’t it be amazing to create such a body of work as to have enough for an ‘annthology’ (see what I did there;))
      thank you for your words here
      am:)

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      • You’re very creative & clever, Miss. I do think you could give old mister c a run for his moola. I like the idea of an “annthology.” Ooo, you know … I’m thinkin’ “title” forr next project — it could be an ironic twist on “anthology” — instead of work published by a bunch of different authors you could assume a bunch of different personas, and then of course it’s a riff on your blog name. Just thinkin’ out loud here; don’t pay me no attention. ๐Ÿ˜‰ And say, how did you discover e.e. last night? He come to you in a dream, or a book? ๐Ÿ˜‰

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      • hey, that’s a fab idea, DS – I’ll tuck it in my pocket:)
        I rarely read any sort of poetry at length – when I took my mom on a tour of our local library – I checked a few poem anthologies out –
        I’d read e2 before but not like this – I love his artful word layout and jarring/hedging lines…
        the breadth of his work is inspiring at a time when I’m feeling exceptionally static about my own work and I’m aching to grow…
        am:)

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      • Okay, this is my 3rd attempt to respond (other 2 on my iPhone; neither evidently “took”) ๐Ÿ˜‰

        You’re reaching stretching in your artistic mind, eye, heart, hand and that’s a very good thing. You will definitely reach the other shore toward which you’re aiming your dinghy, AnnMarie. You’re figuring out your aesthetic as you go along, letting your own true, authentic voice guide you. You’ll see how others do it and then use some of it and shuck off other things, but inevitably your voice on the page will be utterly and purely you, AM. Your work isn’t “static,” btw. But I admire your desire to grow. Oh that we all would embrace that goal. Have a good evening. ๐Ÿ™‚

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      • DS
        all 3 weathered the storm, conquered the divide, jumped the chasm…
        I’m just pubbing this one, my thoughtful friend –
        “how others do it” – unnerves but ‘compulses’ me to persevere (yea, I finally spelled-persevere-correctly)
        I earnestly value your generous words here and will keep them nearby…
        happy sunday – happy snowday (what the heck)
        am:)

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      • Ah, thank you my friend. I was getting frustrated with my damn iPhone last night to be sure (and very little vino, to boot)! Pub the one you choose — I imagine reading all 3 variations gave you some kind of chuckle re: my ineptness in saying what I’m trying to say. ๐Ÿ˜‰ Persevere (I just cheated and looked up at your spelling), you must (so much I — I got 5 rejections this week, one today in the car as we drove back). Persevere (I cheated again), persevere, persevere. It’s a little warmer here and sunny, thank heavens.

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      • I’ll just bet you were chuckling all right, ๐Ÿ˜‰
        I like that idea of “rejection” …
        Speaking of letters, did you realize that “persevere” (had to look at yours again) is really just “per- + severe” — and what of that “severe” stuff, eh? Does that mean being “severe” “per” yourself, or severely per-ing … never mind, just having a little fun. ๐Ÿ™‚

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      • Ha! I’m ready for fairyland where work gets accepted and the corners of one’s mouth curl up instead of snarl down. Actually, I’m almost done reading Gilbert and I think I’ve found a way to be enthused by my rejections. ๐Ÿ˜‰ “From the bowels of her home, in a darkened corner with no windows, the great writer AMRK has gone on to draw and write some of her most famous books, including ….” Start believing, AM. ๐Ÿ™‚

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      • ooo, I like writing about book bowels;)
        kidding aside and well past rejections-thank you, DS
        (all of a sudden I keep getting confused with past and passed-it’s like my brain is losing at least one word per day)

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      • I was LOLing when I read your comment. I knew you’d do something funny with “book” and “bowels.” ๐Ÿ™‚ Pass, past, passed, passรฉ — they’re all confusing to me (with or without vino) ๐Ÿ˜‰

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  3. okay…..chuckling I am….knowing you’ve moved your studio to your basement “so I continue slaying my desires
    upon the concrete foundation of this place
    where Iโ€™m conveniently
    closer to Hell by thirteen carpeted steps”
    Well…..carpeting down those stairs shall add a bit of warmth to your toes and by step four should be up to your knees, then step 8 up to your chest, and by step 13 up to the noggin’! So…..warmin’ up the thought process as you proceed downward….may your spirits soar from those cozy depths! ๐Ÿ™‚

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    • shh, Lillian- don’t tell anyone but I do cherish my time down here. I do enjoy the benefits of creating in a sub-level studio. There is something exceptionally quiet and blatantly peaceful about being beneath all the frenetic house activity:)
      am:)

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