About Me

I sometimes,
sideways-lean-on-tablewell, who am I kidding
I often reread my words and critique my art
thinking exactly this
what am I thinking
what am I trying to get at
sometimes
I don’t appreciate the kind decades
generous, in fact
as I’ve had them
to write angst when I’m happy
create euphoria when I’m blue
mold dream sequences I dare not live
in both word and form
often content in my ability
to be discontent
moody
spoiled
the excuse
the “creative” mind or spirit
instead, the reality
human with the privilege of life…

am:)

In 2017, on the sage advice of a dear writing friend, I began the grueling task of submitting my work to online journals. It is my hope, my dream (like so many others on the crowded cloud we share) to have my work reach a broader audience. In many cases, I cannot use writing pieces from my dear blog. These pieces are considered by many journals, “previously published” and therefore not “submittable.” Today, I am writing the bulk of my work offline. For anntogether, I’ve rediscovered my passion for marrying art and word. I enjoy creating small writing pieces or giving earlier works new life. Then I add art and wha lah! I  hope you enjoy and I humbly thank you for visiting.😘
Feel free to email me at amroselli.writer@gmail.com with any questions about writing and/or art.

 

photo by my talented artist sister ©Grace Roselli

250 thoughts on “About Me”

  1. That’s a nice story. I felt as if I was watching a fairy tale movie. That was sheer storytelling with great art to compliment it.
    Well, I’m Anoop, your new reader! Happy to land on your page 🙂

    Regards,
    Anoop

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  10. Wrote you a new song AnnMarie while I waiting in the hospital. The Title ‘We Need More AnnMarie’

    ‘We Need More AnnMarie’

    AnnMarie makes me see
    When I am stubborn
    All of the sudden my world
    Is clear again and there is no fear
    Creating Art and Magic
    AnnMarie
    Her beauty will goon until
    The end of time
    She spreads joy and happiness
    through the world through laughter
    She’s a kind, gentle, spirit
    One of the few left
    Like an angel heaven sent
    A woman set on family values
    Cooking with pride her great dishes
    She is set apart from the rest like a Queen
    Ever since I met her I have been happier
    She caused me a lot more laughter
    With her love and care
    She makes the world a little easier for me.
    We Need More AnnMarie.

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  16. Sup AnnMarie exciting news a old friend sent me a message looking to reconnect and asked how i was and how i have been. I told him a lot about graduating college, my writing, my health and mental health problems. When we parted ways he made a mistake by sticking with friends who were jerks to me. He tried to fix it and get me to be buddies with his friends so I just walked away. I was sick at the time and going into the hospital a bipolar relapse so it was best to take care of myself and move on. Ten years later is a lot of time and I gave him a lot of information to absorb and take in so I am sure he will put some thought into his response. I left him with an opening where I said if he was n the area we could hang out or play basketball. It would be great to have another friend to hang out and do stuff with. I’ll stay positive and take it as a compliment he came back after ten years looking to be friends again.

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  17. Sup AnnMarie bad news got my A1C results they went up from 7.4 to 7.8 that is a bad position to be in. It really sucks after all that exercise I put in that it made no difference. I am going to cut back and be strict with my diet but also contacted my psychiatrist to make sure its not my BIpolar meds spiking it. It could be stress too. I am just going to keep up the good exercise and pay more attention and focus on my diet.

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  19. AnnMarie you have to read my new childrens book ‘Who is the Prettiest Princess?’ and tell me what you think its like 2 pgs. I love the message of the story and I think its great for little girls to read. Of course AnnMarie in there as the most beautiful wife ever passed. Playing a genial old widower in this one teaching the girls what true beauty is.

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  21. Hey AnnMarie positive news to report. My diabetes had some high sugars so I got a new diabetes dr set up to see her in november I am open to more pills or needles whatever will help me. I am buying notebooks to record food meals and blood sugars for my drs to help. I am putting everything on 2nd spot and putting Diabetes number one. I really feel like I can improve and do better. It’s very hard work but I can do it. I hate needles but you got to do what is best for your health. AnnMarie=Number One! woo hoo!

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      • Okay AnnMarie you take as much as time as you need to get your rest and mentally recharge. I missed you of course but believe me I understand being Bipolar sometimes I have to take breaks from social media and be away from people. Thanks I made a great new friend Julie Handlin she was giving me a bit of a hard time but I had a good response for everything she said. She admitted she was a dork. I commented on some of her pics to say nice things and put her in my new horror book which she loved and she told me it was very sweet of me to include her in the book. Julie is ridiculously pretty treading in AnnMarie pretty territory and same way in kindness. I am going to keep writing my horror book and keep working on my new friendship with Julie. You take care AnnMarie and let me know how you are doing. I care a lot about you. xoxo Dan

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  24. Hey AnnMarie I wanted to tell you a funny story about two girls. Andrea was a redhead she was very pretty, had the best smile and was always smiling. I tried to make buddies with her I told her in the cafeteria that I loved her red hair. She loved the compliment and liked me a lot. We formed a little group there was one girl Ilana a black haired girl with black eyes as soon as she walked towards us Andrea said ‘I Don’t trust that bitch’ pretty intense Ilana was very pretty, brave and smart at the same time she stopped in her tracks and had a concerned look on her face. Andrea got kicked out of school for fighting but also rescued abused puppies. Andrea sat with me when I was violently ill no color in my face. She solaced me. Good heart. Never understood why she didn’t like Ilana. She didn’t do anything. Ilana told me she didn’t watch movies. Ilana was strange and different but like Andrea had a great smile. Ilana seemed to be happy I went over to check on her to see how she was doing she was easy to talk to. The 3 of us are sort like the characters in Jaws Robert Shaw hates Richard Dreyfuss intensely yet he likes The Chief. I was The Chief I was nice to both the girls and cared for them. I felt bad for Ilana and was good to her. My sister says sometimes girls just don’t like other girls. I put them both in ‘Halloween 2’ book in played off the real life hatred between the two. Gave Ilana the best scene and iconic scene with us both very suspenseful. ‘Halloween 2’ is going to have an awesome ending one no one sees coming. I think they would both be flattered to be in it. I tried to give Ilana some great scenes since she got the treatment by Andrea. I love both girls. Andrea liked me a lot. Ilana liked me too it was more subtle. Well she was always looking at me. Those two had a good rivalry. Very colorful fun people and good girls. I love those two. AnnMarie=Number One!

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  25. Happy Mothers Day AnnMarie to a Great Mother and a Great Friend, I am blessed to have you as a friend and your kids are blessed to have you. Your Mother did a great job raising you too! xoxo

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  26. Hey AnnMarie I went inpatient again to fix my meds just 5 days moved my sedating meds to nightime to help with depression and increased my depression meds and I feel so much better so much energy now. Writing a new awesome book. I caught a nasty bug in the hospital though coughing my head off and runny nose. Hope you are well.

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  28. Hey AnnMarie bad news things are going TERRIBLE I can’t write anymore of my book The Bipolar fatigue has come back and my body feels beat up and I need to rest again. I have the creative ideas but no energy. It’s a cruel tease I think God wants me to take care of myself or this is kharma for any past mistakes i made. To be less dramatic about it. This will pass and I will write the book again in the future but its an emotional wound because my passion for writing is so strong. My outreach program people came and did 2 hrs of paperwork. One of the young girls was very pretty and understanding of my situation. The older one was also nice and approved of my small goals for the year. They both understood it was a rough year for me and I need time for rest and healing and I also need all the support I can get with people coming twice a week that will be a lot more support.That’s the latest news.

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    • hey, Dan
      you know through this all, I can read through your words you are still fighting the good fight
      I’m so sorry you have to deal with all this crap
      you hand in there young man!
      sometimes life sucker punches us, and there are only two choices – get knocked out or get up
      and you my friend
      choose to get up again and again
      you are so much stronger than you’re feeling right now
      hang in there
      am:)

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  30. AnnMarie I went back to the hospital I was very sick but managed with my mania to write all writings to the female mental health specalists they loved it and someone who remained nameless bought me a 50 dollar nice leather notebook and a 100 dollar pen to use. I think it was the food server Ernest i love him i wrote a book for his daughter and wrote about her on pieces of paper. I made good friends that hugged me and walked me to the door. I feel great. Ernest always brings love and laughter and good vibes to the time he serves us breakfast i talk to him a lot. He writes too he shared a piece of writing that was more talented then me but it was fun to make the people that helped me happy, ttys

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    • hi there, dan
      i’m so sorry to be reading this just now – i’ve been offline quite awhile – spending much time with my mom in the nursing home
      i do hope now you’re well – look at you surrounded my amazing and generous people just like yourself – you bring out the good in folks near and far – i do hope you’re still writing and feeling well, but most importantly – i hope you’re happy 😊

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      • Well AnnMarie nothing makes me feel more happy when I talk to the beautiful AnnMarie. The artist more beautifuler then ten million supermodels. Now to business I got the jump on this episode early so it was more just a med adjustment i wrote personal stories about my mental health specialists and nurses I guessed they liked them because i got an expensive pen and notebook out of deal they wanted to keep it secret. If I was to guess it was Mechanize she said it was the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for her i made her read outline ans she said she wanted to cry. So I am doing well and finished a horror book in 12 days. I am back to myself. I am happy hope your mom is okay i know she will when she has the greatest daughter ever!

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      • glad you’re doing so well, dan
        and your amazing and boundless creativity is appreciated! to share your work and to write as you do – selflessly – is truly a gift!

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  31. AnnMarie my birthday is Thursday all I could wish for is AnnMarie ha guest of honor at my party. I plan on watching horror movies all day. Well I know you are too busy at work and fam. Just if I had a wish I would want the beautifulest of beautifulest of women!

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    • dan, my friend

      i wish you a beautiful birthday on thursday!🎈
      it’s wonderful you’re are creating and working on maintaining happy 🎉

      i’ve been stepping back on social media in general – we all need a little breathing room lately😁sorry, if I’ve missed twitter comments, my apologies

      HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!
      stay safe, my friend
      you are an amazing person!

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  33. hi there, dan
    so sorry for the delayed response – i missed this comment
    i do so hope the housing worked out for you – how exciting to have your own walls – but more importantly- walls supported by family and friends – i hope you’re doing okay and feeling well – take good care of that amazing brain and heart of yours!

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    • what a lovely relationship you guys share –
      a beautiful bond
      and you’re off to a brave new world filled with all sorts of new creative inspirations!

      if i travel to boston, i’ll most definitely visit!

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    • No worries we all get busy and have to take care of number one! She’s still in pain Her doctor could have given her pain medication so she wouldnt have had to go to the er twice. My sister thinks they don’t give pain pills because people with COVID maybe have been killing themselves because of the pain. The bad news is my sister refuses to go to the doctors anymore she could die from cancer if she did get my sister was a former smoker hardcore smoked a few packs a day but quit smoking and its been at least 14 years for her,, I don’t know her doctor i had once she is nice but she made a big mistake.

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  36. Update Kaley was doing well for two days then needed a little pain medication. My sister is paying all the vet bills if it gets to the point where we have to put her down ill be crushed but alice told me tiki at 19 had trouble with bowls pooing everywhere and that had to be painful and when he fell off the radiator she had to be merciful i still believe kaley can live 6 more years. alice shoots you straight if kaley is in a great deal of pain and gets worse real bad alice will call her to be put down. my birthday is this month ive enjoyed my apartment i manage my money well. i got a lot of people coming to visit me. ive not been writing a lot been busy doing dishes and doing my meds and insulin i take insulin 4 times a day. my birthday is at the end of the month im going to celebrate in style no gluten free cake they go for 70 maybe cinamon buns and cupcakes. ill keep you updated on kaley.

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    • Hi there, Dan

      I’m very sad to read about your beloved cat. Kaley is well loved and I know you and your sis are doing your utmost best for her. She is a lucky animal to have such a beautiful life – and that’s what you focus on – her beautiful life she’s had and if and whenever it is her time – she will have had many precious years.

      You are a champion of your diabetes – you know what you must do – we all slip with things we shouldn’t – and we rebound – as you always do with your positive attitude and spirit.

      WOW! Your birthday month – enjoy, my friend – celebrate another year (though this particular year was eh…) you made it through and you’re onto the next!!! Have your cake and enjoy!!!

      And I must apologize yet again and please count this going forward – cause it will be the same – like you – i’m in the process of moving -not quite yet – but we’ve been madly trying to get this house in order – repainted, spackled, gussied-up, for bringing to market. And then, hoping it sells, we then must scramble to find another home in this crazy realty market! I do look forward to and welcome the change.

      I’m so happy to read you’ve been enjoying your new place, you’ve been walking too, friends have been visiting, and you have a fab sister by your side!!!. Don’t worry about not writing, you’ll return when you’re ready. I’ve not been doing too much myself either, due to everything else going on ‘write’ now 😁

      Be well, stay safe – and happy early birthday!!!!!!

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  37. Sup AnnMarie take your time responding I know what moving is like. I’m trying to rebound from some severe depression high blood sugars raised by the depression. I tell you its hard and sometimes with this depression I don’t want to work at it but I will better my diabetes somehow. I wrote my friend Aimey a song, I wrote her daughter a song, I wrote her niece who had a concussion she just has bad headaches and is better. Those things made me feel good. I cry when I think of Aimey and smile, She is in chronic pain so mostly depressed all the time but her daughter is the reason she breathes. Her daughter is so beautiful cute and adorable. I’ve been writing more of my book now half way there still making sporadic writings of it. I have a telehealth call from my diabetes nurse not going to be fun with how bad i’m struggling i think shes believes in helping people and cares about people. I much rather be writing for Aimey, her daughter and her niece. My sister thinks the girl I’ll end up with is Christy we have been friends for years she has a son who is disrespectful punk who has been in rehab abused drugs I don’t see where Christy likes me more than a friend, I just don’t think she has a lot of friends and I’m nice to her. Alice said as a girl she knows these things you only text who you like and if you have been texting for years there is a connection there, Good luck moving and selling. If I had any say about it you would move across the street!!! AnnMarie every day??? I could get used to that. Well I guess a Dunkin Donuts is not a bad fall back. Be Well AnnMarie lots of hugs and kissees. Dan

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    • dan, i’m so sorry you’ve been struggling so much. A beautiful heart like yours should never be sad. But i understand your struggles are real, and i understand how the constant maintenance can wear on one’s soul. but you are a young man loaded with inner strength and that strength even when you’re feeling otherwise is what will get you through. you are so selfless with all your friends and i hope you find all the happiness in life you so richly deserve. you’re blessed to have a wonderful sister who listens and is a tireless supporter of her brother – through the good days and the bad – you continue to try – and you acknowledge the things that work and the things that don’t – you have to give yourself a little breathing room for falling down sometimes – i believe in your resilience ❤️

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  38. AnnMarie I went inpatient I scared my family with a crying spell. I had suicidal ideation. My nurses at mass general thought I was taking way too much insulin so my diabetes nurse told me the wrong thing and just kept increasing insulin i was double the dose im on. they got my sugars under control from early 100s to higher rare sugars mostly under control. so im back on track. the diabetes nurse i dont see anymore the parents of mine chewed out the head dr at tuffs where he was supervising that nurse and he was disturbed by other hospitals saying the insulin was too high and refused to give it to me. the dr agreed to take over my case, i feel he is a great dr and with good sugars thumbs up never knew how too much insulin could raise my sugar

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    • oh dan,

      i’ll keep apologizing for my delayed responses –

      I hope by now your sugars and meds have equalized and you’re feeling much better. I’m so very sorry you must go through this – but you always manage to persevere through it all because you’re aware of the pitfalls. Your amazing spirit, even when certain things are beyond your control, remains vigilant and strong. I am ever-amazed by your positivity. Wrong med amounts…and figuring out dosages can be a slippery slope – but you are surrounded by folks who have your back and I’m so glad things are getting squared away.

      you take good care of yourself
      annmarie

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  39. No apology needed we all get busy and there is only so much time in a day that doesn’t mean we don’t care., I think I need an antidepressant increase. Been feeling depressed and lonely at my apartment not everyone understands I’ve been through a lot and yes indeed my sugars have been under control perfect, I think it’s fine to stay at home once in a while and get extra support., I know I need it even though it can be toxic. Hopefully I get an increase or it passes. .

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    • hang in there, dan
      you seem to know yourself really well
      if you feel you need an increase – do what your instincts are telling you

      family – we love them and we don’t like them sometimes – i understand that well!

      i’m sending good thoughts your way ❤️

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  40. Oh bad news AnnMarie sorry to barrage you with messages. Just my sugar got so bad I had to go to the er. They had no answers or solutions. They did rule out all the bad diabetic disorders that could damage and kill me. I see my diabetes dr Tuesday my dad is coming in hes just going to be nasty to the dr. It’s not the food doing it I need another insulin. To be fair the diabetes on the current insulin kept increasing insulin with my sugars still high. It didn’t work I cut out out things in my food that could raise sugar. The dr said that milk doesnt raise blood sugars so i can have oatmeal and cereal. I think the diabetes dr and i have done our jobs im not a dr so now its up to him to try another insulin or different treatment.

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    • oh, dan
      I’m so very sorry to be reading this
      I do hope they’re finding a way to get your insulin under control
      You’re doing all the responsible things on your end
      I can’t imagine how difficult this all is to manage
      I hope you’re a bit better now
      ❤️

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  41. Bad and Good News AnnMarie I went to the er for Bipolar all the stress with dmh worker, nurse that messed my arm up, diabetes, bad infection, tremors. all 3 nurses wanted to admit me one of the doctors was very experienced she was pretty and complimented me saying i must be a very talented man. the 3rd one who came across who was bitchy when she finished the questions was very nice to me and sad for me remember AnnMarie dont judge or you will be judged. my pdoc and i decided to go outpatient he raised my med by one pill it worked. my dr said he thinks its a short term thing and i can go back to my regular dose in a week or less. that is good.

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    • oh, dan – I do so hope you’re in better state right now. I’m so very sorry for all you must go through. And yes, you are talented, so keep the faith, keep creating, and take deep breaths while looking at the sky. I shall keep you in my thoughts, young man❤️

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  42. AnnMarie doing better writing a 1000pg book for Gabby a friend. I have done one before for Rita. This is going to be good for Gabby she will feel special and can someone did a massive accomplishment to her. I’ve lost a few followers I don’t think they like the book. It’s ok. You can’t please everyone.

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    • Hi there, Dan
      I hope all is well and your health is on an upswing.
      Yes, you can’t please everyone – wiser words were never spoken – keep the creative faith.
      For the last several months, I’ve not been doing much writing at all. We’ve been purging, donating, and packing up our home getting ready for our move next week. It’s been a bit hectic – but the best kind of busy. I’m fortunate that I can do this. The next month or two will be equally as hectic while getting settled into a new place and a new home – exciting but nutty too!
      You’re a kind and generous creative person, just keep doing what you’re doing. And, stay positive as you do – a role model for those around you!

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  43. Sup AnnMarie how was the move? I got sad news my sister’s friend Meg has a 10 yr old girl with COVID. You cant get vaccine until 12. Her husband abandoned them two years ago and recently was killed she said it was complicated maybe he got killed by someone, I grew up with Meg she was never fan of me but you can’t please everyone i picture in 5th grade in her minni mouse shirt and skirt i was in 1st grade we went as little children to chadwicks where you got a free sundee. meg liked my dad’s story the bean man when my dad was in foster care this man ate beans every meal i forget the rest. meg had to leave Massachusetts because she had a condition where she couldn’t breathe the air here without getting sick shes in north carolina with her mother, My 1000 pg book is up to 422 already. Hope you are well talk soon

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    • hi there, dan
      i’m sorry once again to apologize for my delayed response – which of late has been a regular occurrence

      house packing followed by relocating and unpacking took quite a long time – i’m finally back to a point where i’ve got some semblance of a studio set up and i can start getting back to some arting and writing

      enough said about me and my guilt over delayed responses

      i’m very sorry to read about a child with covid – i’ll keep her in my thoughts and we’ll hope for a healthy recovery

      there’s much sadness in the world, in people, in families…so much transpires here on earth…in the end, the things that make the difference are the moments of caring, the times of love and the many good deeds flying under the radar every day…

      you are a good-deed doer and a thoughtful young man who concerns himself with others – in his writing and his daily life –

      keep the faith, my friend
      and continue taking care of yourself so you can help others as you do

      onward and upward!
      am:)

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  44. AnnMarie a little worked up. My pdoc tried to get me off a med that was good for me if he got rid of it other meds wouldn’t work. he sent me an article that contradicted everything he said. he lied on the phone saying he wasnt going to take the lithium dirty liar. i did have a conversation and i told him the truth ive had doctors not include in the med decision making, hes not going to take me off the lithium he was on the defensive. he just said he never tried to force me to get off the med he left a message 3 weeks ago saying the lithium would damage my kidneys and not worth the risk. but i wore on him to tell him article says only need to be worried when you are 65 on it. im glad i stood up for myself.

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    • hi there, dan –

      we must always be our own advocates when it comes to our health, we must balance what we know about our own specific med history – and listen to the doctors who know you best – there are many good, empathetic docs out there – but also a few less so

      you are a wise young man
      i hope all else is well

      i’ve been so very busy during this latest relocation and haven’t had time for much else

      i hope to return to regular art and writing soon
      i’ve been doing a few small things offline for now

      take care
      stay safe
      be happy:)

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  45. Hey AnnMarie how are you doing my Pats are going to smash the Bills. If they can beat The Bills they are a Superbowl team. Bills are elite to blow those suckers out would be great. I’m getting over my 2 month illness I just got exhaustion and bodyaches. I haven’t been able to write my 1000 pg book i need a break in the mean time I have been memorializing JeanBennet girl died at 6, keeps her alive in the world. she plays an angel, ghost,brought back to life from a time machine so far the favorite a man dies saving a life and he can pick one person back to life and picks her,Everything worked out with the pdoc and I also got a little mentally sick it was brief and not serious, let me know how you are doing my beloved annmarie,

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    • hi there, dan
      i’m so sorry you’ve got to deal with so many medical issues
      but i tell you what – you never give up and that is amazing to me!
      just keep doing what you’re doing – write your heart out

      you are a fearless young man, who brings joy to the world

      be well, my friend

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      • AnnMarie bad news I wasn’t sick with any virus or cold it was acid reflux i cant have tea diet soda coffee all my fav drinks. i switched to milk these very stressful with celiac and acid reflux limiting what i can eat. angry but i have been making headway with the book pushng 600 pgs tryng to get to 1000 for gabby its hard when your not your best at writing but i come up with some creative stuff.

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  46. Sup AnnMarie feeling better i felt bad about rita but we are cool she put it in a nice way protective mothers can go as far as not putting pictures of their kids on facebook and social and other stuff rita has been a very good friend to me for years and just a caring mother that is the bottom line good friend and good mother,

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