I am vain

This piece inspired by my face, currently a disaster of stress rash. Apparently, holding back, in an attempt to be monstrously strong, isn’t good for you. I can now use my face like a 70’s mood ring. Never believed I was vain, but lately I’m hiding in the shadows along with my creatures.

13 thoughts on “I am vain

  1. Ann, many years ago, (1984 to be exact) it was explained to me that stress is like steam from boiling water. If it is kept inside, such as in a pressure cooker, it keeps building until it finally explodes in a destructive way. If, on the other hand, it is allowed to escape, such as via the spout of a teapot, it equalizes with its surroundings. Learn to “Be Like the teapot”. If we don’t learn how to deal with our stress, it will deal with us.

    A lesson from a guy (me) who is still trying to figure life out at age 58.

    Sadly, the guy who taught me that lesson took his own life in 2011.

    Grief is the emotional response to loss. It is a process. . .a painful process. I’ve often wished I had the answers. If I had, I could have written a book, gotten rich and lived the celebrated life. But any book written, regardless of how good it might be, stills falls short.

    Just be in the moment. . . abandon yourself to the process and eventually, you will process it. (pun intended).

    Sorry to sound like a preacher this Sunday morning.

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    • Ray,
      I thank you for your most insightful and thoughtful words. In the big scheme of things, there is much good in my life that I’m ever so appreciative for. Writing is a wonderful release and I keep putting it all here rather than have it manifest elsewhere. But I do need to reevaluate my strategy ’cause it hasn’t been practical. I’m an emotional Taurus trying to act like a mechanical bull 😊
      Sad to read when someone takes their own life – to think of the deepest level a heart can hit and then still need to sink beyond -heartbreaking.
      I will heed your advice – “in the moment” ad will allow the grief to do its thing and move on.
      Nah, no preacher – more like a sage friend 😊
      am:)

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    • oh, Georgiann
      I’m gettin’ there
      working thru everything all at once
      there is light at the end of the tunnel
      I’m in that “woe is me” zone which I so detest – as that’s not me – so I need to get back to myself – nearly there 😊
      am:)

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  2. I wish I could wave my wand and make the stress go away, but alas– a dementor stole it from me when I went to Diagon Alley to buy Bertie Botts’ Franks & Beans. Hang in there, Chief. And come out of the shadows. Don’t you realize you’re a sustaining force for us, your many fans?? Er, sorry– I didn’t mean to speak rashly… 😊🔫

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    • you know, Mark
      I’m much more into my face than I was willing to admit – dang I’m vain – who knew – I didn’t
      I’ve learned how to walk into stores backwards – my new super power 😄
      Alas, the nasty rash seems to be disappearing – thanks to a dear friend who happens also to be a remarkable pysician’s asst
      This whole rash😄episode has taught me a better path to calmness in calamity
      I now sing an old favorite tune daily – Ren and Stimpy- happy, happy, joy, joy
      I always appreciate your big happy humor and kind words lacing the laughter
      am:)

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      • We’re ALL much more into our faces than we’re willing to admit. Now in the case of my own god-like perfection, it makes sense. But what OTHER people are obsessing about, well, it beats me… 😊🏆

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      • ah, you are god-like, so I shall add when I address you in all your splendor:
        fine funny man!
        yea, what are all those others obsessing over – when you and I got the market covered😉

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